My phone is...

...kanasai.

This isn't so me.. but I'm gonna blog what I've been doing today. In 'Dear Diary' style!

Dear Diary (I haven't named you yet, so for now I still just call you "Diary"),

Today, we went out to have buffet lunching in celebration of I's belated bday, new job and her S pass. You know us well, don't you Diary, when I said buffet that means Sashimi party! Oh what a joy! I love how soft and smooth the salmon meat went into my mouth and sled into my throat and finally will go out in a shitty form called shit. After that great lunch, we walked around, took pics around orchard (like another Indonesian tourists, oh Lordy Lord, so many Indonesians!! I can spot them 100 meters away) and finally ended up at Uniqlo-Ion which was a huge mistake. Not only that shop was over crowded, I couldn't really walking around without saying "excuse me" at least 2-3 times (I hate crowded place, as if it's enough for me to stuck in crowded working place for 9-10 hours a day) but I came back home with a shopping bag in my hand too *SIGH*.. but it is a really nice jacket though, no I'm not trying to justify my wrong doing, but really.

That's it. No more shopping for the rest of this month. I know it's kinda impossible as I'm going back to Jakarta soon, tell me how to not shopping at Jakarta? TELL ME LORH!! Oops, I'm supposed to write this in Dear Diary style. I'm seriously getting addicted with singlish jargons. Tee hee.

Back at home, I was planning to sleep cos the weather was really great for sleeping, but ended up watching lame Singapore Idol. Oh my, Diary, not to belittle Singaporeans, but where are talented people here? I can't sing but I can listen, my ears complained what kind of fuckery was that. 1 or 2 of them is good (or just okay-ish), the rest is baddddddddddd as in badddddddddd for tv standard. Secondhand embarrassment.

So now, cos I don't know what to write anymore and I want to go back to my reading, I will end this post. I think I will write a review about this book I'm reading called The Interpretation of Murder by Jed Rubenfield, after I finish reading it, that is.

Music: Choose - David Guetta

DOUBT

Ok, I've been feeling it now! *point to the title*
I know, I know, it's maybe too early. I keep reminding myself "Yessi, priority, priority!"and it's become my spell or jingle every single moment I feel it *point to the title again*

GAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH....

Sometimes (well to be honest, all the time), I really think life is unfair but that's a very very selfish thought.

I know I can do it.

On other note, my current addiction: pitbull's album (it's uhmazing) & shimmering nail polishes.

"Tsk tsk teenagers these days.."

I was working yesterday and these two teenagers (1 girl and 1 guy) came in, apparently they weren't in for shopping but selling a salon (I forgot what's the salon name) membership to me. Well, it's a deal to be honest, but as this month is pretty tight, I didn't buy it (I don't really need it anyway... maybe they think my hair is that bad? lol).

So I said to them, "Nah, thanks, I don't really need it."
Guy, "It's really good deal, just for $29.90, you can enjoy all these promotions bla bla blabla.."
Me, "Yeah, but no, thank you.."
Girl, "Why? Today is the last day of promotion."
Me, "(Oh rewwwwwlyyyyyy?")"
Guy, "Yes, there are many people bought this" took out all the filled up membership cards
Me, "Oooo, but really, no thanks, maybe you ca-"
Guy, "Why? Why not?"
Girl, "Why?"
Me, "Why, why?"
Guy, "Why not? Is there any particular reason why?"
Me, "No, not really."
Guy, "Is it price-wise?"
Me, "Well, maybe yes. (Well you want me to be honest, huh? I have many answers for your WHYs. 1. I just came back from holiday which means I'm broke! 2. My last month's pay is pathethic 3. I just bought a birthday present 4. I don't know your salon 5. I just bought pants 6. I went out to a kinda expensive dinner last weekend 7. I have a long ass movie list that I'm going to watch soon! 8. I need to pay my rental 9. I have another long ass list of book I wanna read/buy.)"
Guy, "Ok... but you can use this for 1 year. So, why not?"
Me, "Hmmm ya ya, you maybe you can ask her (whatever you say lah)." pointing to M who's standing next to me, lol.
..and they kept Why-ing again to M.

Finally they left, and M said, "tsk tsk teenagers these days..."

Gotta praise their will to keep persuading but it's just kinda irritating. I mean, customers can say NO without giving any reasons, ok?

This is kinda weird..

I have this very bad habit, I like to bite and picking skin around my finger nails.

It was started when I was a kid (I don't really remember how old I was), I liked to bite my finger nails then I stopped and started to bite/pick the skin around nails...

Yes I did try to stop doing it.

There was one day when I was in High School, I promised my self not to do it anymore, so, on the next day I tried to refrain myself not to do it and really didn't do it for the whole day. I was proud but felt something missing. And the next day, everything was back to normal.

Yes, I can control it if I want, but...

..the feeling is.. I can't describe it. I like the satisfaction when I can peeled the skin nicely and it bleeds a little. I like the pain when I press on the tender raw skin with my nails. I like to munch my skin. I like when after I peeled from my finger the skin is hardened. It just feels great.. lol I sound sick

As when I do my normal/routine activity I don't feel the urge to do it, but whenever I'm in deep thinking or occasionally nervous I can't really control myself. I feel like by do it, it will ease my mind or think faster.

Up until about half to one hour ago, I had always thought this is just another bad habit. Like some people never put their stuffs back to the place where it should be placed, I like to bite/pick my finger nails' skin. Thanks to internet, I was surfing gossip pages (as usual) and found out a link to a wikipedia article "Dermatophagia", that article really describes something that I had been calling as normal bad habit. Apparently, it's a form of Obssesive-Compulsive Disorder. That means I have an OCD called Dermatophagia.

This feels so weird... I mean, ho ho ho hold up!

I
have
an OCD?

A little good news,

I'm not alone

Guess who's back!

Hey hey, I'm back from vacationing. I'm pumped!

Everyday was glorious day hahaha. It was really a great 2 weeks holiday. For those who don't know I went to Penang and Vietnam (HCMC-My Tho-Vung Tau-Chu Chi).

Started from 17 Sep, a surprise visit from my cousin, Evi, who came from Brisbane. We went shopping (I shouldn't shop but I couldn't resist!! Thanks for paying my dress, lol) and chit chatting like old times. It was good to meet her again, I wish she stayed longer. Then fetched my parents and sis from Harbour Front and I miscalculated the time to go there, I was late and had to take taxi.. money oh money! Hate to spend money that I shouldn't spend.

The next morning on 18, we flew to Penang by Tiger. It was my first time flying from Budget Terminal. One comment: it really is Budget Terminal. Everything, from interior to toilet to food, is lower grade from Changi's normal Terminal (T1-T3) hahaha. So, we reached Penang and couldn't find our transport, y'know, the guy who hold paper with name written on it. I called the local tour agent to ask where the hell the driver is, 15-30 mins later, he finally came and apologized (well, he should be), he said he was waiting at the bus station as he read that I booked the hotel and transportation from Konsortium, so he thought we took coach to Penang. DUHH.. I know Konsortium is widely known as coach agent but they're also selling tours etc. Yah anyway, I wasn't really mad or anything, we still hired him as our driver for a day.

We went around Penang island, to temples, malls and food courts. My honest opinion, as Penang has always proudly promoted as THE food paradise, it doesn't live up its title. The food was ok, some are good some are just ok-so so-forgettable, it was cheap and the portion is kinda small. The ones that I considered great was Asam Laksa (LOVE IT!), Chendol and one dish that I don't know the name haha. There was one night the hotel had blackout when I was showering! Luckily, I wasn't in the middle of shampooing or pooping I was just about to finish haha, I mean, isn't it rare for a hotel to have blackout? I thought they always have generator or sumthing..

It's funny that I always saw Penang through images, doing travel brochures, posters etc., so when I finally went to Penang (well actually I went to Penang once on 2002, but I totally have forgotten what Penang felt like) I have this kind of feeling, something's like, "Ohhhh finally, picture comes to live! Finally I see the real thing of thing that I did so many many many times!" haha. Lame, I know.

Back to Singapore. Two places that die-die-must-go when my father is in Singapore are Mustafa and PPC food court. He loves food, ghetto places and supermarket! If it's cheap, a lil bit 'dirty ghetto you need to sweat' like Mangdu or Pasar senen kind of place and something a lil bit unique or unusual for him, he's totally IN. It's always been a lil bit difficult for me to please him. He loves food, particularly chinese food (and Indo food, of course), and I'm not really familiar with great chinese food restaurant or stalls here.. cos when I go out I seldom go to Chinese food restaurant. Chinese food that I think it's delicious, for him, it's just ok-good. He's always comparing with ones at Jakarta. Another problem is he isn't really into Indian food, Western food and Japanese food. Oh well.. but anyway, we always managed to please him whenever we go to PPC food court and Geylang food stalls, lol. Re-read this paragraph I just realised why I'm talking about my father, this is supposed to be a show-off-vacation-post! Lulsie.

Ok back to topic, we flew to Viet on 23, it was exciting cos it was my first time taking Vietnam Air one of the stewards is good looking, pretty boy kind of type, yannoww, my liking lol. I love to fly with different airlines, too bad I don't have money to keep up, budget airlines are my best friend...

Vietnam was wonderful. The places were good and the food was great!

Errr.. I'm kinda lazy to continue writing so I will post the pictures to tell the story haha. I need to upload 800+ pics from my trusted camera -..-

Oh and, I went to Sentosa to watch Song of the Sea. My sister and me agreed that the effects are cool but the whole show wasn't as great as ($10 we spent) I expected. Sorry Singapore, but the so-called story is friggin lame and kills the show. I think it's better just to put effects to awe people or change the storyline. It is that bad.

Music: Hot Issue - 4Minute